| Tuesday, May 15th, 2007 |
| 8:08 pm |
BYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH |
| Tuesday, January 31st, 2006 |
| 11:28 pm |
Well it's been fun
So if you hadn't taken a guess at the title I will no longer be updating my livejournal. I dunno why I felt the need to state it but yeah didn't want to leave any of the 10 people that read it hanging hahaha. Anyway yeah I have a myspace now but i dont really type journal entries into it. If people want to know how I feel well then ask me heh. But yeah so if anyone has the ungodly urge to e-mail me my address is malignantcookie@yahoo.com and my AIM is Lupisdawn34. So yeah. It's been a ride on the livejournal train but I think I'm done. So peace out kiddies and have as lovely day :) Current Mood:  WanderingCurrent Music: Midtown - No Place Feels Like Home |
| Tuesday, November 8th, 2005 |
| 7:57 pm |
Dance it up
Do what? Hahaha yeah. I'm not doing anything right now. Oooops probably should be. So why am I typing here? A diversion I guess. I have nothing to say really. Just bored and not doing anything. I should you know...Remedy that. Maybe I'll type more later so this post is completely pointless. Disregard it. Much like one would disregard a strangely formed freckle. Until it turned into a CANCEROUS MOLE! AHHH! Cause then you're screwed... Yeah moles suck. And done. <---- name that quote...too bad no one reads anymore...Or just not fantasy books written in the 80s. Mmm 80s hairstyles. Hahah the mullet lasted for like, 2 seconds. No literally two seconds. Yeah I know (I love you Tece) And I like cookies. Yay. RED PEN! Current Mood:  Losing my mindCurrent Music: Angel Sanctuary - Sanctus |
| Monday, October 31st, 2005 |
| 11:51 am |
I didn't know that you liked lemonade
I woke up this morning with a sneeze. Whoa there's a lady bug crawling down my wall. Heheh I want to poke it. So I'm tired right now. So tired. But it's alright. And yes I am obviously not at school. Good observation. I have today and tommorow off because MDS is random. But it's good because I have alot of stuff I have to do that I should have done earlier in the weekend...hehe or in the month (like read three books...woops :D) I think I am going out tonight with Katie and maybe Arielle. Exciting. And other people if they come maybe? I dunno I have no idea what's going on now. But I do know I am going to work in about 10 minutes. Of course as of right now I'm not dressed but it's alright. Anyway I should go take care of that whole getting dressed thing. Later. Current Mood:  unfortunately awakeCurrent Music: Aquabats - Red Sweater |
| Thursday, October 27th, 2005 |
| 8:40 pm |
Better next time
Hehehe...I'm confused but that goes without saying. Some people need to let go. Face it. You lost. Actually no one really won I guess but yeah. I'm done. Why don't you know that? C'mon you used to know me SO well. Or you thought you did. But no. Not really. Maybe you tried but I let you in and then well...Needless to say you ruined it. So now you're worried it might affect something else? Why does that even matter? I don't even need to associate with you if I don't want to there. I mean yes our contact may be inevitable but it doesn't need to be on a friendly level. I'm not even angry anymore. I stopped that a while ago. I'm not sad anymore. That left with the anger. The dissapointment, the hurt, any pain, it's gone. I do have some type of feeling but it's not a good one. Nor is it totally bad I suppose. More like finishing a book that you liked for a while and then it developed into some crapshoot that you finished out because you couldn't give up on it. And then you put it on your shelf to never read it again but maybe glance at it occasionally and think of something good. Or something bad. But the wounds are gone now they're just scars and scars tend to fade with time. These scars are fading as I write this. Why did I choose to post this here now? Well because of certain actions that you've taken. It doesn't matter how long it's been. Face it you fucked up. Deal with it. Just because I don't want to interact with you doesn't mean I'm dwelling. You think I'm still thinking about it and dwelling on it? Hahah you're funny. I like how some people twist things to please themselves. Right. You can think that but it's not true. I don't have any malice or animosity toward you but like I said...Something else. And if you think this is childish well get over it. I've moved on why don't you? I'm not even sure how I feel. Sure I may say hate but it's a mixed bunch of feelings. But none of them happen to be love. Never again. You had your chance to salvage any type of respect or relationship I had for/with you. But you kinda blew it. Tough luck. Why didn't I mention your name? Does it even matter? I think you know why I'm saying this. And I definately realize that you know this is addressed to you. It's funny how things change. But that's life I guess. It has a way of catching up to you and then spitting in your face. People tend to be like that too I suppose. So maybe it's a way of fighting back? Or just taking it silently and trying to get the best of it on the next go? Then there's something else a person can do. They can stay silent but fight. Not outwardly but inside themself. And then they win. Or lose. It doesn't matter, either way it affects them. Whether it's good or bad people change. I guess sometimes human beings are too ignorant to even realize it until it's happened and they're seeing themself or someone else as a completely different being. But it's just a part of life. I don't know what this is called. A rant? A vent? Mind emptying? Sharing feelings? Label it however you want but to me it's a personal note. Besides no one forced you to read it. I merely typed it here and let it run free for all to read and see. So what does that make me? It probably doesn't matter. To whoever is reading this...I hope you find peace with yourself. Just think things through. Even though things may change, for all you know it could be for the better. Be happy with yourself or at least try. And if something doesn't work out...I'm not saying give up but there are times when someone needs to let go. It can spare you alot of pain. Enjoy. Current Mood: calmCurrent Music: Jimmy Eat World - Disintegration |
| Sunday, October 23rd, 2005 |
| 11:11 pm |
Oh well in fact...
It feels nice to just sit and listen to music. Weeeee...This weekend was too short I think. And uneventful but it's okay because I relaxed. Mmm yay. And there's chocolate in the house. I would just like to say everyone reading this should go and listen to Panic at the disco. Go. Go now and listen. Why? Because LIK OMG LOL THEY R T3H ROXX0RS <3 <3 LOLOL!!!!!1111!! No seriously. They are. So I'm bored now. Short attention span kicking in for the moment. I think I might sleep. Mmmm sleepies. It's really nice outside now. I like this time of year. I like the cold. It's comforting. Whoa my dog just crawled out from behind the curtain. And then sat back down. Poor dog. I bought a sweet watch from Michael's today. It's red. I enjoy it thoroughly. And on the note of wrist adornments I have a vignette about my clear toothbrush bracelet. Last night I thought I lost it so I made another one out of my extra clear toothbrush that I had been saving for Kate. Well I made it and I was happy because I had a new bracelet. But earlier this evening I was in my room standing on my bed and I look down and LO AND BEHOLD! there is my clear toothbrush bracelet. So I am now complete again. Rejoicing. My thoughts are a bit disjointed right now and I apologize. Prolly because I really have nothing to say right now. But it's okay. I'm doing GOOOOOD. Woo. Alright I think I'm done. Peace out homies. Current Mood: contentCurrent Music: Panic! At The Disco - Build God, Then We'll Talk |
| Wednesday, October 19th, 2005 |
| 11:12 pm |
NO STYLE!?!
Hmm...I should go to bed. I should study. I should do more work. I should not be sitting here typing this listening to music. I should be happy. I should be excited that it's almost the weekend. I should be thrilled that the first quarter of senior year is so close to being over. I should be packing my books. I should be cleaning my room. I should try to be nicer. I should not complain. I should not feel crappy. I should want to be around people. I should want to love life. I should like myself. I should be trying to fix stress. I should relax. I should think before I say things. I should be myself. I am in a strange mood. I don't know why. If I did know I wouldn't say I didn't. Typing in short sentences is annoying. I have no direction to my thoughts right now. I am tired. Anyway I think that's it for now. Current Mood:  thoughtfulCurrent Music: No Style - Gravitation |
| Tuesday, October 11th, 2005 |
| 11:01 pm |
Insert Catch Phrase Here
AHHH SO TIRED AHH! But it's okay because I don't have to go to school tommorow. Heh senior retreat was made awesome by my friends...Well awesome during the parts that they could make it so. Yeah that makes sense. Hm...Lots of fun memories. I'll mention a few: - Sleeping on the bottom bunk and reading the lovely "notes" left - My flashlight >:3 - Carol and Therese having a battle over sleeping bags - Hahaha Amir and Laura, Rachel, Christine, and Kristen's room hehehehehe - Laura picking up the spider during mass - Sleeping on the bottom bunk and kicking the one above me hahaha - FIRE IN THE DISCO! - Singing Backstreet Boys and getting it stuck in everyone's head :3 - Getting less than 8 hours of sleep over the past few days Yeah...not much because right now my brain isn't functioning properly. But it's okay. Because I had ice cream. KARAMEL SUTRA ICE CREAM AHAHAHAH! yes. And it was good. (Katie this comment was for you because well...you know why >_>) I'm tired. But not sleepy yet. So I think I might watch something on TV. Must find something yes yes. FIRE IN THE...TACO BAELL!!!! Current Mood:  SpazzyCurrent Music: Shining Collection - Gravitation |
| Wednesday, September 28th, 2005 |
| 11:44 pm |
I am complete
Hm...Been a while again. Heh oh well. I just wanted to say right now I feel good. Despite the fact that I am so blasted from little sleep and I still have some homework...I feel good. I'm happy right now actually. But it's not the laugh like a crazy person act spastic happy. It's that calm feeling that comes over someone when they feel accomplished. I'm happy with myself. And I think I can proudly and confidently say that right now. I just...yeah. I've been a big ball of stress and uptightness lately. And I did feel crappy about that but right now I just...Yeah I dunno. I haven't felt this way for a while. Heh...it's good. Really good. It makes me want to hug small fuzzy animals...okay maybe not that far but yeah. I dunno what else to say. Maybe that I feel like I've moved to somewhere in my life. Maybe a new part of it? Mmmm lets get philosophical. Or not. I dunno but heh...whatever I'm in a good mood now. Hah so good night then. Current Mood: tranquilCurrent Music: Frou Frou - Let Go |
| Thursday, September 1st, 2005 |
| 1:08 am |
I'm probably a ninja!
Yes so was Henry V. Anyway yeah...My birthday was (technically) yesterday. yeahh...It was cool except for the whole having to go back to school thing. Katie r00lz for coming over as does anyone else who wished me a happy day or did something nice/cool. Yeah...I don't want to go to school tommorow. As it can be noted it's about 1 AM and I am still not asleep. And prolly won't be for a while. Sucks. And I have to work tommorow...blah. sucks more. I dunno how this year is going to go but I hope it's good...yeah. anyway...I should be doing something else like uh...work or something? Anyway time to go finish up the last of the work that I didn't do before hehehe... Current Mood:  kinda lonely...Current Music: Cruel - Tori Amos |
| Tuesday, August 30th, 2005 |
| 12:03 am |
Fingernails
Ever heard someone scrape their fingernails along a blackboard? That's the sound I keep hearing in my head and it's irritating the shit out of me. I don't know WHY I'm so irritated right now but I just am. I can't seem to concentrate on anything for an extended period of time and I keep kinda skipping from thing to thing. I guess I'm having an ADD attack or I'm just going insane(r). Yeaaaaaaaaah...That or maybe it's the mindless programming on in the backround. I would like to state that reality shows about wrestling suck. Actually reality shows suck in general. They're mind numbing and they make me hurt on the inside. All I've heard for the past ten minutes is men yelling incoherent things. AHHH! It sucks. Oh well...I think I'm gonna do something else now. WOO! Current Mood:  irateCurrent Music: Stupid reality TV |
| Monday, August 22nd, 2005 |
| 12:17 am |
If I were a food I would be toast...
Because then I would be one of the most versatile foods on the planet. If you think about it it's true. Otakon was this weekend. Sadly it wasn't as good as past years but it was still fun. Maybe it was the amount of people or the amount of security or whatever but it seemed like the whole con had this bad vibe emanating from it. Anyway it was enjoyable for the most part and tiring. I didn't take any pictures but other people did and I can't wait to see how they turned out. Yeah actually I had something to type here but I forgot. So yeah...How bout that weather...Personally I think it should have rained at the end of the convention today. Why? Well for one it was beastly hot all weekend but freezing in the BCC so why not have it rain? Sure it might have made Baltimore smell more like a garbage pile but hey...I like rain so it would have been nice. I am sad. Kate already moved into college and is going to be gone from the house soon for a while. I will miss her lots and be sad about her abscence. So I was driving back from Towson today with Kate and I was wondering why the drive back from Towson to my house seems shorter than the drive from my house to Towson. Maybe it's because I'm going home? Or maybe because I had Kate with me? I dunno but it seemed like it was much shorter than the drive there. I wonder if that's a thing that generally happens to alot of people because it feels like that sometimes when I go places. Or maybe I'm just insane and not very good at keeping time or recognizing how long it takes to get to and from somewhere. Yeah anyway now I'm tired. So I'ma sleep. Peace out. Current Mood:  thinkingCurrent Music: silence in the houuuuse |
| Tuesday, August 16th, 2005 |
| 6:05 pm |
So silly
I'm a twit ;p I've come to that conclusion. Heh...anyway these comics---> http://www.hingos.com/patches/index.php are t3h r0xx0rs O_O HOLY CRAP MY PRINTER JUST TURNED ON BY ITSELF! Anyway yeah. Feeling okay right now. Eww have to read a boring book. Oh well. Peace out. Current Mood:  alrightCurrent Music: ...hardcore gangsta rap on TV |
| Monday, August 15th, 2005 |
| 12:36 am |
OTHER SIDE!
Well...I came back again. And heh...All I have to say now is I'm kinda happy. I'm not sure why. I think I'm happy to be home. I have one more thing to add for now about tour and it's this: Last night was the last night of the season and of our tour. At the housing site in the vending machine room I found 27 cents and when I put one dollar in the water machine it gave me two. That made me really happy for some reason...That and I found two shiney pennies. So yeah...It's funny how some things work out. Anyway...I think I'm gonna really sleep this time. Later. Current Mood: mellow |
| 12:17 am |
Yeep
Word to long hiatuses (I don't think that's a word). Surf is over for the season. Yay? I think yay but it's a little sad too because of all the people I probably won't see ever again. This summer was fun and there are alot of memories that will stay with me. Yeah. I'm incredibly tired and I have to be at work by 11 tommorow, which suuuucks. But it's all good because I get to do something that's not too strenuous tommorow and involves alot of sitting. Mmm sitting. I think I'm typing here now because I have nothing better to do. I still have no AIM which bites the big one but I'm working on it (like I have been since last winter but oh well). It kinda sucks because it's the only way I'll actually talk to some people but I guess it's good because I don't waste my time as much sitting on the computer doing nothing. I am really tired though which also suuucks but I don't want to go to bed. So if anyone wants to talk to me then leave a commenty here or e-mail me (this is in general). Yeah it's boring right now. My e-mail is malignantcookie@yahoo.com so woot. I feel kinda sick but I think it's because I'm tired. So yeah maybe time to head in but I prolly won't. I think I'll try to write in here more but I've said that before and it hasn't happened. Ooh well. Peace out for now. Current Mood:  neutral |
| Sunday, May 15th, 2005 |
| 10:43 pm |
haHA!
Sunburn mmmmm. Surf this weekend. It was good. That's where the sunburn came from. These updates are really kinda pitiful...My belly button has sunburn. Someone needs to explain to me how that happened. So little school left but so tired. Oh well. Tiiiiiiiired. I'm sleepy now and I have to go do some homework. WOO! Current Mood:  Sunburnt and tiredCurrent Music: Parents watching a movie |
| Wednesday, May 11th, 2005 |
| 5:54 pm |
Mmmm poptart
I smell like brass cleaner. It's intoxicating. The AP US History test has come and gone. It's a huge relief and I'm glad it's over with. Surf every weekend for the next few months. Yeehaw. I can't wait until this weekend though. Yaaay. Schools almost over. Can anyone tell that my laziness has sunk into this journal as well? It needs to be summer. Current Mood: chillCurrent Music: SILENCE AHH!! |
| Sunday, May 1st, 2005 |
| 12:54 am |
My life the angry toaster
Mmm toaaast. I'm updating now because I am bored. Bored I say. Can't you see the boredom seeping from every orafice of my body?...Yeah me either. Too much has happened for me to bother saying it all so I will give on word descriptions and leave the speculating up to the people who still read this sorry joke of a livjournal :) Cymbals. School. Tired. Work. Late. Car. Phone. Friends. Foooood. Skirt. Mall. Spirit? Sleepy. Sick. Homework. Boyfriend. Band. Fieldtrips. Spring. Break. Concerts. MOONINITES! Yes. Anyway if anyone has specific questions or uh...just wants to talk to me leave una nota and I'll get back to you and maybe even CALL you. Yeah by the way the AIM on my computer downstairs along with the rest of the internet...Yeah it's definately still broken. So to all MAH PEEPS who read this it's not cause I'm ignoring you it's cause my computer is broken. Actually I don't think anyone reading this would care cause well...No one reads it. So yeah that's all I got. Peacing out. Current Mood: Tired yet awakeCurrent Music: TV? Yeees TV...Or something. |
| Saturday, February 26th, 2005 |
| 1:30 am |
HAHA!
HAH ONCE A MONTH UPDATE BEYOTCHES!!! Sadly, this is going to be a pitifully small once a month update because I'm tired and I have to work tommorow 10-3 wooooohoooo!! I'm sleepy. And I smell like baby powder. Why? I'm not entirely sure myself. I love you. Yes...That means YOU! I love everyone. The mole died. I'm sad. There was a mole inhabiting my basement and today I found him next to the laundry room door... Dead. It was sad. I thought he was a piece of lint cause I was cleaning and I went to pick him up...and well. Yeah. Dead mole. I had to work tonight toooo. That's pretty much what I've been doing lately. School and work. Oh and Surf in there too. Tired now and this update is dying dying dyiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing. Maybe I'll actually make an effort to update this thing more often. TACO BEEEL!!! Current Mood:  sleepyCurrent Music: Taco Bell Biography on TV |
| Sunday, January 23rd, 2005 |
| 2:08 pm |
I had a dream with you in it last night...
So I've been meaning to update but everytime I remember I just don't. Why? I dunno too lazy or something. Or I just don't feel like retyping stuff. I'll try to rectify this issue in the future. Or maybe not. But we'll see. Lots of stuff has happened in the month or so that I haven't updated this. I made Surf which is coool and midterms are over and I thankfully passed all of them. So I'm pretty happy. The school year is half way over and snow has arrived. So it opens up the opportunity for snow days. I also just realized that with the school year ending also comes the AP US History Test. Hahah it rhymes. So that'll be interesting. I have homework I still haven't done of course because I'm procrastinating. There's still a torn dollar bill on the wall next to me and the basement is still kinda smelly but it's a little neater. It snowed yesterday quite a bit but I'm off from school tommorow anyway. So where's the point in that? Oh well at least I can build a snowman. Mmmm snowman. 636 songs on a playlist and not one thing I really feel like listening to. Oh well 311 makes it good. Or at least SOME 311 makes it good. Too much and an overdose can occur resulting in no listening to of that band/artist for a while. Which is sucky. But such is the way fo things. Once again the weekend was spent cleaning and sitting around. Ahhh productivity. I want to go out but somehow that prospect looks slim. I can still dream though. Maybe I'll go to Wal Mart and buy a pair of socks or something just so I can tell everyone I went "shopping" this weekend. They'll be amazed at my braveness in confronting the snow. Well or not but still. Sadly I have to clean a bathroom now. Peace out. Current Mood: mellowCurrent Music: 311 - Beyond the Gray Sky |
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